yula09

Do you guys ever really sit down and think of the root cause of your overeating or binging?  I mean we hear a lot that being overweight is caused by emotional distress.  That we eat the most when we are trying to cover our emotions or any pain we are going through.  I use to think that my relationship had nothing to do with my overeating.  Until these past two years.  It has been a rollercoaster for me and my husband.  And now that I look back, my weight has gone through a rollercoaster as well.  It seems that when things are good between him and I, my weight starts to decline, because I am more focused and I will have energy to work out.  But when things are bad I truly don’t do anything but sit on the couch and eat.  I have no energy to workout or make myself a salad.  The first thing that comes to mind is Mcdonalds and how good it is going to taste.  It is as if I am searching for something to give me a little bit of happiness, or replace whatever feeling I am yearning for.  So when the food doesn’t give me that satisfaction all I want to do is sleep to not feel anything.  That is where the laziness comes into place.  I don’t know why I am writing this to everyone out there in the web world or maybe it is because things are not good in my life right now and I really don’t want to back peddle and gain that weight I have lost the past few weeks. But I want to know that I am not going crazy and that I am not the only one.  If you have gone through this how did you get out of that slump? What did you do to not allow your relationship with someone affect you so deeply that it changes you for a brief long moment? It is as if when things are bad you forget all the good things you have been focusing on such as; working out, eating healthy, and most importantly staying positive. Then you give up! Then when things get better you start all over again, making it harder for you to reach your goals. God knows that I don’t want to do this anymore I want to be a healthy 26 year old.  Maybe it is time to let go of whatever is making me feel this low?  Whatever or whoever is draining all my energy?  But if I am not even strong enough to not allow something or someone to get to me this bad, where in the world am I going to find the strength to finally let it go? How am I going to be able to move on?

Sincerely,

Unhappy soul.

Ok so I finally have started changing my eating habits, which overall I feel so much better. No more cheeseburgers, soda, or candy and I seem to have a lot of more energy all of sudden. I mean I even have started to digest food better but there is one slight problem. I have all of sudden started to have really bad gas! Ok I know this might gross out some people but to be honest this website is the only place I can really be real and talk about something like this. I can’t really go around my job and tell someone “hey did you have bad gas when you started to lose weight”?? Since I barely started to eat vegtables again maybe its part of detoxing? All I know is that my hubby has been sitting at the other end of the couch. lol It has only been a few days maybe it will change later on if not I really have to do something about it.  I never really been a farter so this is new to me! Has anyone had this problem if so what did you do? Is it going to go away? I am making it sound like a crisis. I do feel like i have a flatter tummy and I dont feel clogged up and bloated. Hopefully I am on the right path. Peace out!

Sincerely,

 Yula aka. “stinky farter”

Ok so I never really been a big fan of counting your calories in order to lose weight but I do think it is a great way to keep track of what your putting in your mouth whether if it is good or bad.  Then analyze what you ate for the entire week and see where you need to make changes.  Sometimes, usually when I snack I forget what I ate earlier in the week.  I also like to know what I ate on Monday and if I ate well I can give myself a treat on Friday or Saturday.  I sound like a dog, treat?  A friend and I also started to email each other everyday what we ate.  This I feel is also a great way to keep track of your food.  Because if you lie to your friend then you are simply are lying to yourself! And many of us can lie to ourselves but not to others.  So when I keep track of my food I also write down how many calories that had and by the end of the day I total it.  I know sometimes we simply don’t know exactly how many calories something has so I have been using this great website called http://www.calorieking.com/.  If you’re like me you will start something and not finish it so what I did I put a timer alarm on my phone to remind me everyday at the end of the day to write down what I ate and I log it on my computer using excel.  So I put a shortcut on my desktop to make sure that I have to look at it everyday.  Good luck! J

So I been consiciously trying to avoid logging on to my buddyslim account.  I am ashamed of logging on and having to change my weight tracker go from 153 to 159.  Not only that but also having to face the fact that I have not been trying hard enough to stay with my workout and eat well.  With the holidays (thanksgiving) and vacationing, plus not to mention I ran out of thyroid medicine, I just been so lazy, but of course that is not an excuse to not continue with my workout.  Yeah I know STOP WITH THE EXCUSES.  I need to bitch slap myself and yell in the mirror”how the hell are you going to lose the weight you want if you don’t get your ass off out of that couch and you keep stuffing your face”!  Did that sound like a multiple personality disorder? Geez.  Not just am I avoiding the fact that I gained weight and have been doing terrible with my eating habits but worse yet I AM A BAD BUDDY!!!! Not logging on means not reading what my buddies are up to and giving them positive remarks, being a top buddy.  I suck as a buddy guys..and it wasn’t because I am a bad friend but because it is hard for  me to face my weaknesses and admit that I have not been giving this my all.  I have never in my life been this heavy I always stayed in the low 150’s and now I am almost 160! How could I have let this happen, I mean the whole point of signing up with buddy slim was to find the encouragement from people but how can I get that encouragement if I don’t even log on??

But you know guys what got me to log on today? Was all those booster notes I had. I kept having to see them on my yahoo account and finally decided to view them, which meant having to log on and face my weight gain. Oh I so wish I could punch my “weight gain” in the face! LOL So I am praying that doing this whole buddyslim thing isn’t something I will give up on because I have a tendency to start things and never finish them, I mean I don’t even get half way to tell you the truth.  So I am hoping this will change, because if I continue doing things halfway in life I am really never going to get anywhere and worse yet I will never be happy.  Thanks to all my buddies who continued to remind me to FREAKEN LOG ON! LOL

Ok so I was noticing today in the mirror how I am the only one of my four sisters who has this pouch right below my belly. At first I thought it was apart of my belly and then I started to notice how it almost resembled a kangaroo pouch! I am not ashamed of it because it is apart of me and it also shows how much I have let my body go. I remember back in the day how I was the skinny mexican girl who wasn’t athletic by any means and could eat practically anything without gaining weight.  Boy have things changed since then. Now everytime I eat anything it swells up my face and not to mention my pouch. So from now on I will call it “da pouch”.  Too bad I can’t carry groceries in it, jk. I am realizing that the best way to not get depressed about my weight is to look at it in a more comedic way.  If I sit here and say “oh poor me look how fat I am” then I will stay in that mentality and will be fat forever not doing anything about it.  But if I make jokes about it and laugh then my mood is different never getting to that state of depression.  Were it is easier to make that transition from laughing to having strength to workout. With a better attitude. So my goal for next week, since I started a little late on my workout, is to eat less tortillas cause I heard that’s where my pouch has been getting most of its nutrients. lol

Oh and by the way I am looking for buddies since I am fairly new on here!

“Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done,
it’s always your choice.” - Wayne Dyer

~Yula~

Yesterday after a long day I was so tempted to go to Mcdonalds and buy a double cheeseburger meal. It doesn’t help that Mickey Dee’s is right around the corner for me that I can actually walk there. But to get my mind off of it while I was on the freeway I decided to call my little sister and find out how was school going for her. I didn’t even realize that I drove straight home and by the time I got off the phone I was already parking. I sat on the couch to watch the Wendy Williams show and a Mcdonalds commercial came up showing a quarter pounder, wow so delicious that my mind started to get the best of me. So I went online to log on to buddyslim and decided to look up what fat looks like in your body. And found the most disgusting photo ever! I even lost my appetite. It looks like lard in a jar. Imagine cooking with that jk.  If I go by Mcdonalds and eat those two cheeseburgers, which would include a large fries and coke it would be almost the same as eating fat out of a jar. I have been doing so good working out and eating right for the past few days that I have lost 2 pounds and I cannot relapse. So I grabbed a Yoplait yogurt (which by the way is great for your digestive system) and some carrots, not to mention 8 oz. of water. I felt so much better by the time I went to bed. So I am putting the image for you guys to see so whenenver you do feel like relapsing, and don’t get me wrong maybe once a while it is ok but not when you are working so hard to do good, you will imagine eating “fat out of the jar”!!!!

Are you ever sitting at home watching TV and for a few minutes daze off imaging yourself in a two piece bathing suit just like the one Kim Kardashian was wearing in one of her episodes. Or imagine yourself dancing in one of those hot outfits like the ladies in Dancing with the Stars? If so, we are just alike!  Why is that we day dream day after day about losing weight but we don’t actually take the next step to do something about it? Or, why do we decide 1 week to workout and 2 months to quit and start all over again. It’s like taking 1 step forward and taking 2 steps back.  We don’t just do this about our weight but also with things that are happening in our life, such as with our relationships or career.  I suppose it is a habit that tends to evolve and take over our lives. We are happy with day dreaming but not happy with the way our lives are going.  So it becomes a struggle and it’s frustrating that at the end of the day we are exhausted from thinking about it that we will end up doing nothing about it. How can we stop day dreaming and start working towards reaching our goals?  What can we do to find the motivation to start but not quit after realizing that hard work it is going to take? I wish I had the answer to all these questions, if I did I would be a size 5 right now instead of day dreaming about being it.  I always tend to start things and then quit. I get so excited while I am thinking and planning it out but will quit a few days after actually doing it. Let’s face it we don’t like hard work, we rather think about us doing it.  I suppose that is why I am here ready to take control of my health and stop day dreaming!!!